Loss of Taste

Loss of taste is a horrible experience. It is so hard to explain or to even imagine. You can cover your eyes and imagine a loss of sight, block your ears or nose or wear gloves to experience the loss of your other senses. There is though, no easy way to grasp what it is like […]

I Love My Body

I am learning to love my body. I am increasingly in awe of it. This is not a confession of  a narcissistic tendency to admiringly gaze into a pond or mirror. It is not about shallow feelings or ego. Quite the opposite, I am talking about a profound appreciation for the  mass of atoms that […]

Celebrating Survival Day

Yesterday was a traditional day of celebration as it was my birthday. But in my eyes the importance of my birthday has now been superseded by today’s anniversary. Three years ago today, the day after my birthday, I was diagnosed with cancer. While my birthday measures the days since I came into this world, I […]

The Beauty of Being Wretched

Growing up I had no contact with cancer. My first exposure to its grim realities was a movie in the early 80s. John Hurt played the role of a man who was often reduced to vomiting in his sink. It shook me up and I always felt deep sympathy for anyone diagnosed. Over the decades […]

Today I Tasted Eggs – Recovering Taste After Chemo

Now this may not be a headline that will stop the nation. Few people can even begin to understand the importance of recovering taste. I know it is a incredibly insignificant event of zero consequence for everyone – but me. For me though, this was an event of incredible significance. Only those who have experienced the loss of taste […]

Lance Armstrong – You Really Let Us Down

I’m not into cycling and I was never too into Lance Armstrong’s book. I read a couple of chapters though and heavily identified with his chemo experiences. It was oddly comforting to read in print what I’d experienced. There is no doubt the book had importance. Two separate concerned friends gave me a copy. Others […]

The Loss of Wisdom is Such a Waste

A great conversation starter is: “What three people from history would you most like to have dinner with?” It sets minds racing on who was the most brilliant thinker, explorer, adventurer, leader, artist, singer, ruler or politician.  It is hard to weigh up the respective merits of science, medicine, philosophy, astronomy, art, culture or discovery. I’m fascinated to hear other […]

The Lose Lose Proposition – Fighting Cancer and its Reality

I hesitated for ages before I could put anything at all down about my experiences with the Big C. I was diagnosed around two years ago. I have a nasty version – Stage IV tongue cancer. The survival stats are not comforting reading. The tongue and throat are really grim places to have things go […]

Me and My Mate Michael

Michael Douglas doesn’t know I exist. I’m sure he never will, but fate has joined us together in an odd way: Not only are we roughly the same age, but we were both diagnosed with the same cancer within a couple of days of each other. The Michael Douglas cancer diagnosis was big news. I have […]

Old Age is Not for Sissies

In my early 40s we were out with a large group of friends having dinner. The performers came on stage and suddenly there was a flurry of activity as everyone reached into pockets or bags to find their glasses. We were just that age. Few of us needed glasses all the time, but they did […]